Dahn Yoga DC Metro Member’s blog

“Chun JI Ki Un (CJKU), come a lot!…here and now…..no, still not enough…I need more…”…as I sat in the Healing Room, trying my best to “create” a huge energy field that would have a calming effect, I kept wishing or “commanding”…CJKU to please show up….I feel grateful that Master Edward let me sit in, this healing session for my colleague’s dad…so the only way I feel I could contribute is at least to create a “sacred place” in the healing room….

but today, something’s wrong…wrong with who?…at first I thought, Chun Ji Ki Un…’cos it did not come a lot…even as I kept counting on it…at least I thought by commanding, CJKU would understand I am relying on it…so I kept “commanding” in my mind…

after a while, and several moments of disappointment, I felt like Ki Ki…the little witch who could not fly…that time when she lost her true self…what’s a witch with a broom but who can’t fly?! I looked at the tools in my hands…I felt my 6th chakra alright…but still…not much CJKU…what’s going on?

moments of disappointment later…I opened my eyes…this is it…I got bored as CJKU was not responding…as I looked at my colleague’s dad…he was still in pain as Master Edward helped him to release blockages…and I watched Master Edward…his hands were sure and his manner reminds me of a doctor at work…

then at one moment, my colleague’s dad shouted, “You are BEST…YOU ARE BEST!”…as if knocking at my heart, the shouts….CJKU started entering!! Voila! I felt so touched….for his voice came from deep in his heart….deep within…

that moment, I felt a resonance in my own…deep within…yes, this is it…GRATITUDE…and FAITH too…for he had insisted to only have Master Edward treat his condition…and this time, we had to travel further, now that he has moved to another center….”the master is very good…” he would smile as we make our way back in the car…

…GRATITUDE…I bowed my head in shame…”I am sorry Chun Ji Ki Un….those moments you came to me…I took you for granted…I know I do…I am sorry….thank you also for always being there….”

and CJKU came a lot…yes, came a lot…as it reached my dahnjon, the corners of my mouth turned up automatically to break into a smile…thank you, CJKU…

I remembered what Master Bup Sung taught in Healer School…”not like that….feel gratitude in your heart…” he is right…GRATITUDE…yes, when I am lost…lost again…that is when I need to look deep inside and find GRATITUDE again…

Thank you Master Bup Sung…Thank you, HEALER SCHOOL…for helping me see that I am bigger than who I thought I am…Thank you Master Jeon, for insisting I attend the School…Thank you, Master Edward, for showing me, a GREAT healer at work more than once…Thank you, Chun Ji Ki Un…Thank you, Dahn Yoga.

It was Master Edward who gave me the confidence that I can be good in Dahnmudo and could actually teach the class on a regular basis…I began to enjoy it and I actually started believing that I could overcome my limits of having a physical body…it is not always fun to be a “spiritual” person, particularly when one has a physical body but could not use let alone control most of its functions….

Body intelligence…yes, you are right….those of you who told me I have a lack of or even laughed, when you used to see me…if you ever try to teach me how to dance…actually, the more you laugh, the harder it can be for me…and my way to overcome my hurt ego is just to give up altogether….and feigned disinterest…but deep down inside, I also wished to be like everyone else…to be able to feel my legs as I walk…not to fall too often…and dancing or other coordinated “fancy” stuff are just “good to haves”….but the basics  only were what I wished for….

So going to the 21 days Dahnmudo school was something I believe, when I am in my “right” mind, I would never agree to…but I was, in my right mind when I signed up…for I really wished to overcome my limits….to break old patterns….and when I went through the program, I realised…”Ah…this is REALLY who I am…”..It was challenging to say the least…but I also learnt plenty: to be resourceful, to eat fast so have time to follow whichever “teacher(s)” good at any particular forms for extra lessons…and I learnt to trade….healing for teaching…those who have the patience to tutor me….I released a lot of old/stagnant energy, that parts of my skin was discoloured temporarily…the result is a much better complexion than I started out with….not to mention warm dahnjon, feeling of my legs…it was a really good program…

So I am really happy, when Master Edward actually told me to teach Dahnmudo class…I never thought I could…now I believe, everybody can…and I am so grateful to Master Geum Wah for believing that I would be able to go through it… 

As I wrap up my day and think about who I should feel gratitude for, today, I think about you: my classmates in the Dahnmudo classes…I think about the Dahnmudo instructors…I think about Master Geum Wah and Master Edward…

Thank you, Master Edward, your vote of confidence…I would keep practising, keep finding ways to improve!

Feeling the chill on my cheeks, watching the bare branches sway in the wind, I could not help but sigh, “…winter, must you come….fall, could you not take me with you…?”

But winter responded back, ” did you not recall how happy you were when you first saw snow?”

So I felt ashamed…indeed, who am I, to make preferences….who am I to choose one and not the other….living study, this is really hard, this is really painful, especially, when you are the one to be chosen/not, and not the one who chooses…living study, can be really hard…so I feel really grateful, that I have opportunities, to pay a one time fee, and not with heartaches, for the advanced training that help me to cope….PBM (Power Brain Method)…yes, I could do a lot with that help….right now…if I could only recall…

and winter can be beautiful…for I shall now look forward, to greet the winter sun….

Thank you Dahn Yoga, programs to help me cope with “living study”…the training can really help make life that less of a suffering….Thank you, Dr Ilchi Lee.

October. 27. 2007

Healing Chakra with Master Blue Ocean

Do I have to see the last leaf fall? I ask myself as I went for a little walk this evening….I always remember Master Briana’s initial awakening class…”imagine what you need to do to hold onto that falling leaf..do you think you could?” …it was then, that I realised, becoming a Dahn Yoga member, I paid for more than I thought I did….so I stayed on and become a Gold member…

Today, I was feeling sad again, the imminent departure of Master Edward, I asked myself, “why? and how many times do I need to see comings and goings?”…do I need to always see the last leaf fall?…why has Fall got to be so short? Why good times, so fleeting…? Why?…Is this it? As tears started coming…I knew…it is time..time to start from the beginning again….

…Tao classes…yes, that’s just what I need….I remembered how excited I was, when after Shim Sung, I could finally attend….yes, Tao Classes….

Thank you, Dahn Yoga….Thank you, this environment, to learn about ourselves….to learn about life…thank you…

My heart has a special place for Little Child…she is so vulnerable, her fragile heart…that I feel I have a responsibility to protect…

So today, little child came running to me…tears in her eyes…”What happened?”…it always breaks my heart to see her like this…but of course, I would never let her know, how I feel…

“The flowers are crying….the flowers are crying…someone must have made them sad!..”..so little child broke into big sobs…with each sob, my heart sank further…it hurts me so much when she hurts…

I went running into the garden…furious, anxious, upset…you name it….but as soon as I saw the flowers…I laughed like I never did before….yes, Little Child…my Little Child…you have become my Little Friend…that I forgot that you are still a child!!

For the flowers, they are not crying….they just have Myung Hun….they  have just been watered…

My Little Child…but who could blame me…who could blame Love?!

Thank you, Dahn Yoga, for teaching me…”Myung Hun, is but a passing phase…” and thank Heavens for that…as things could only get better!…:-)

Rushing from day to day, I hardly had time to look at you, my Yoga Mat. Each night, I used you, I laid on you, I roughened you up as I struggled to do my bows, my homework….I hardly take a look, nor to wonder, “how are you?”.

But today, today is a different day…for I wish, to change myself….As I looked at you…the rough spots, my tears came….from you, my Yoga Mat, I could tell, where, where you had sustained me most….your rough spots…..is there no love? No, I am sorry…actually, I should have known…

Take 2 people, you who had seen me, day to day, you would have known me…we would have rough spots, in our hearts, yours and mine….you whom I see….less often, it would be easier for you to feel love and even compassion for me…. Is there no love? Actually, there is plenty….GRATITUDE…plenty, GRATITUDE…for you, who I take for granted…every single day….

The grass, that I walked on outside….if I have time….the yoga mat that withstand my weight every night…come rain or shine….how could I compare….how could I…?!

but you see, I made mistakes…and I have this ability….to make mistakes….

“Chun Nyeo Nim, the Sun has dark spots too!….” Master Edward taught me, his first guide for me, to accept myself….indeed, if I could master that, I could begin to accept….others as well…I could begin….

And everyday, it is just a new beginning….a new piece of paper…as Seusengnim said in his poem….

I wish, for a new beginning…I wish, I never compare….you who see me everyday…and you who showered me love, when I have a chance to see you…I wish, I never  compare….

The sun, has dark spots too…may I, be allowed to make mistakes…?Could I at least say, “I am sorry.”?…Could I bear my own consequences…please?…

But Thank you, Dahn Yoga…I am growing…as I am learning…this environment you have for us…

The brain wave vibration exercise is so simple and I feel so good during and after it. I feel very relaxed and calm. Tonight I did the brain wave vibration followed by dahn mu and I felt as though there was no need to move — cosmic energy was just flowing through and around me and was me. It is a very healing experience. Before I did the exercise my neck was tense and hurting and now it feels normal