Nov 04 2007
My Yoga Mat
Rushing from day to day, I hardly had time to look at you, my Yoga Mat. Each night, I used you, I laid on you, I roughened you up as I struggled to do my bows, my homework….I hardly take a look, nor to wonder, “how are you?”.
But today, today is a different day…for I wish, to change myself….As I looked at you…the rough spots, my tears came….from you, my Yoga Mat, I could tell, where, where you had sustained me most….your rough spots…..is there no love? No, I am sorry…actually, I should have known…
Take 2 people, you who had seen me, day to day, you would have known me…we would have rough spots, in our hearts, yours and mine….you whom I see….less often, it would be easier for you to feel love and even compassion for me…. Is there no love? Actually, there is plenty….GRATITUDE…plenty, GRATITUDE…for you, who I take for granted…every single day….
The grass, that I walked on outside….if I have time….the yoga mat that withstand my weight every night…come rain or shine….how could I compare….how could I…?!
but you see, I made mistakes…and I have this ability….to make mistakes….
“Chun Nyeo Nim, the Sun has dark spots too!….” Master Edward taught me, his first guide for me, to accept myself….indeed, if I could master that, I could begin to accept….others as well…I could begin….
And everyday, it is just a new beginning….a new piece of paper…as Seusengnim said in his poem….
I wish, for a new beginning…I wish, I never compare….you who see me everyday…and you who showered me love, when I have a chance to see you…I wish, I never compare….
The sun, has dark spots too…may I, be allowed to make mistakes…?Could I at least say, “I am sorry.”?…Could I bear my own consequences…please?…
But Thank you, Dahn Yoga…I am growing…as I am learning…this environment you have for us…